ephemeral euphoria

for one's heart shant never be mine,
for ones' heart yearns for another;
spare me one's words..

for one; eyes tell me enough;
as each passing moment;
I see her shadows in ones' eyes;
her touch upon ones' skin;
her name engraved in ones' heart.

but it'll all soon be okay;
maybe somehow someway;
may my love be the cure-
may my love be strong.

Words shan't poison my soul.
for they're just mere words;
nothings meant to last forever;
and in time I've lacked to see it all.

Foolishness hasn't spared me this time round;
yet if denial is what I have
then in denial I shall live.

For I know the truth which resides in one's heart;
that truth that makes it ache;

but I'll stay strong;
though I'm weak.

I'll stay strong.

remember what I'd said before;
we'll let our broken-hearts sing the same tune;
yet do know my love for you is pure.

Life as it is.

Those tiny fingers and toes,
that little breath of air;
those tiny eyes blind;
so tiny;
new and fresh;
innocent;

the taunts;
bullying;
childish games and glares;
giggles and baby fats;
ignorance;
a mind too matured for that moment in life;

stained;
naive;
impatient;
blush and embarrassment;
beauty along with a curse;
used;
fondled;
played;

denial;
truth and lies;
aches;
red;
smiles;
heat;

lust;
denial;
ignorance.

truth;
faith;
peace;
desire;

momentary;
forever;

life's a temporary high;
love sets out to give me a permanent high.
love's the drug;
neither the pill nor nicotine;

they say while it lasts;
then let my selfish self in denial
tell my foolish soul;
this is forever.

another episode of it all?
take my hand in this journey;
and you'll see why I spend my nights
awake;

dreams turn to nightmares;
and not a teardrop spared;
for I care too much for this wretched world;
I love it too much then I should;

but I can't help it;
like an oceans' current;
never ending are my worries and fears.

for I care too much for this world;
for I love too much for this world;

it's me;
just the way I am.

just the way I am.

a Hedonist.

your pain my pain.
your pleasure my pleasure.
your sadness my sadness.

I feel things I shouldn't feel;
see things I shouldn't see.

that's just me.

the pursuit of pleasure in all ways and forms.
I strive for it;
like a madman in love with a dead corpse.

ok I need a dosage of nicotine for this madness.
pardon this post.

alone

It's a world where every man is for himself.

Lovely.

I'd like to dedicate this post to a group of special people;
Bros and Sis' ; and Friends;
whom I've not been meeting up for after such a long time.
I MISS YOU PEOPLE!!!

I know; it may seem as though I've forgotten everyone;
but please do know that I do think about every single one of you every single day.
It may seem as though you've lost my care and concern;
however; I do keep you in my prayers;
hoping that all of you will have a good day ahead.

I may be in the wrong at times;
How much time would one take to send a message to ask another how he or she is doing?
however I am just like any other ordinary human;
and I too have my flaws.

I may not verbally or physically show my care and concern;
and there's so many to love;
therefore I decided that it'd be best to keep all of you in mind and heart.
Where all is fair and just;
for I dare not love anyone more or less.

If ever for once; you'd thought or think that you're forgotten;
please forgive me;
and do know that you are not forgotten.

If time abides;
we'll meet soon after.

just know that you aren't forgotten;
for I know how it feels;
to be left alone despite the fact of having everyone around you
and yet you feel alone.

But truth is we never were alone;
someone had and have always been there.

With Love,
Sabiruna.

Dandy December

So far things have been A.W.E.S.O.M.E :D

4th December 2009
Went out with Mr. Faiz :)
headed down to beach road and thereafter Arab Street to meet Mayhem,
and I do have to admit,
it was nice seeing almost everyone once again:)

pictures courtesy of ziza:)




6th December 2009
Papa called home in the morning;
SSC's Giant had this crazy sale, 1 frozen Sadia Chicken for $1
and 1 packet of Dory fish fillets for $1 too.
Each person was only entitled to 2 packets each,
so headed down with Miss Gendut, Miss Kudut and Mr Cakap Besar to SSC,
and we got 10 packets of each!

Papa then belanja-ed us roti prata for breakfast;
whilst on the way home;
I suggested that we'd head to the swimming pool today;
papa grinned widely.

AND WE DID!
It was great fun:)
Though the two little ones are such panicky lil children;
at least Miss Gendut has learnt how to relax and float:)

and papa swims so beautifully;
he swims pretty gracefully for a man his teddy- bearish size:)

What a way to end my weekends;
just one word:)
LOVELY.
(in a failed attempted british accent)

It's just like that.

Random Facts of the day!

1. I rarely like typing my name out as Sabiruna, I'd rather type it out as sabiruna.
2. I hate and love using CAPS it's a love-hate thing.
3. I've got a fetish for ears and necks and arms.
4. I like cats with that "v" shape on their backs.
5. I dance in my room alone when I'm bored.
6. If I could I would love to try to jump off and climb everything around me.
7. I think I've got a bad fashion sense though I can't really be bothered with; I love the way I dress.
8. EVEN HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL PROMOTES SEX -.-"
9. Whatever happened to those innocent movies children should watch??
10. I'M SO BORED!
11. I'M SO FAT!
12. DAMN I'M SHALLOW.
13. HAHA! I'm CRAZY. VERY CRAZY!
14. I NEED HELP. SANITY!!!!!

One chance,
to prove me wrong;
one chance already gone.
All is same.

Nothing changes...
Tired of it all.
sick of it all.

Why is it all being so difficult?
Why is it all being so hard to believe.

Of what is left for me to hold on to,
when it never did exist.