Thank You(:

WOW sabi,
you've been such a bitch!
Thank goodness I've opened up my eyes;
Thank goodness it has hit me hard.

Things happen for a reason;
for a moment there, everything did seem fucked up;
but atlas,
bad things happened cause good things are to come.
(like how you always did tell me)

I'm sorry for calling you a jerk;
hating your guts and ego;
Hating you to the core;
truth be told you did the right thing;
which is to move on,

and in my state of selfishness;
I HATED you.
But now I realise how foolish all of it had been.

I sincerely,
from the bottom of my heart would like to thank you for everything;
we'd been through.
It didn't end off on a good note;
But thank goodness
for the things I learnt when I was with you.

You were a sweet dream which turned into a nightmare;
and I'm not saying it's a bad thing;
instead,
I appreciate everything you'd put me through;
the heartaches and the dizzy "love" spells.

You were a slap to reality to me.
And I learnt it the hard way;
glad I did.

I'll pray for your happiness;
Seek your forgiveness for my foolish act;
and I hope you will last with your love;
May she be your source of happiness and joy;
your source of strength and
your guiding star in the darkness.

Thank you and forgive me.

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I'm sorry for my perception on you;
you're an amazing person deep down;
and I hope you will live a blessed life;
filled with joy, wealth and health(:

You've got what it takes,
so keep that spirit alive;
you're one STRONG girl(:

and I salute you for that(:

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I can't believe how a broken heart transformed me into a demon;
I'm glad I'd learn from it;
I'm throwing it all away.

No one's perfect;
maybe i expect too much out of love..

I'm learning.

~ Yours Sincerely,
Sabiruna.


" There ain't no special couples only ordinary couples with extraordinary stories"
~Sabiruna

Happenings.

My head lies to my heart
And my heart it still believes
It seems the ones who love us are the ones
That we deceive
But you're changing everything
You're changing everything in me

I love you.
yes I really do;
help me; save me from my self-destruction.
I'm falling hard and I don't know if I'll be able to pull through this;

so please don't break this fragile pathetic heart;
the feelings they're coming back;
but I still need this numbness;
I'm afraid.

be my strength;

but I do know;
I love you.
I love you my close stranger.

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It's time for me to take a step back,
to say goodbye,
these 5 years of my life with NCC
has been great;
but I fear I won't be doing a good job;
for all the commitments I shall and will
have to shoulder.

So this is goodbye.
I will be back someday when all is good;
when I get things right.

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school term has started;
and I am trying to be enthusiastic.
I've got this silly intuitive feeling going on;
that something is going to happen.

And I will explode and rebel;
and I will not lose the fight.

This is it;
It' either make or break.

and I hate giving up and failing.
I'm all out on this one.

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It's back to those good old days;
where gymming and jogging was almost everything.
I'm back.

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time to find my spiritual self again;
I don't wanna lose it.

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Know what I ain't got nothing to hide,
Faiz, I Love You.

~Sabiruna

"One succeeds with patience; and success comes with patience"

Jurame

Andrea Bocelli's Jurame
<3

Swear to me, that even
though much time passes,
I'll never forget the moment
that I met you.

Look at me,
there is nothing more profound,
nor grander in this world than
my affection for you.

Kiss me, with the kiss of a lover,
like no one's ever kissed me since
the day that I was born.

Want me, want me until you
are filled with madness,
then you will know the bitterness,
that I am suffering because of you.

Everyone says that it's a lie
that I love you.
Because they've never really seen
me in love before.
I swear, that I myself
don't understand why
Just a glance from you captivates me.

When I am close to you I am happy.
I don't want you to remember others.
I am jealous at the thought
that you may remember
another person's love.

Swear to me, that even
though much time passes,
I'll never forget the moment
that I met you.


"Why you're so obsessed with me?"

It's cause I love you.

From time to time,
I shall keep this love alive;
for we both know,
what it feels like to be alone.

you have me.
you will always have me<3

when.

I thought I'd never let this feelings come back to me
again.
I was determined and sure that this time,
I'm ready to say NO.

But here I am going against that self promise,
Any regrets?
nope.

You told me,
not to give up on love,
else it'd be such a waste.

Here I am,
vulnerable again,
that little happy girl once more;

I've found my peace,
yet within lies a fear,
what if this isn't forever.

But it's the hope and belief that,
you will redeem Love,
to its name I'd never knew before.

I always thought I'd knew what love is,
from my previous relationships,
yet i realised,
It had been the wrong love.

Sacred love,
stooped so low before me once,
lost it's wonderful meaning;
in exchange for a foolish fleet of emotions.

was that love?
Had I never tasted true love?

yet I know the feeling of a broken hearted girl.
the feeling you get when
all the promises ever made was all EMPTY.
gone with the wind;
your presence in the distance,
I no longer recognise you no more.

Yet I believe you,
You aren't the same.
and we'll let our broken hearts sing the same tune;
alone with the light breeze of the night;
all you have to do is smile;
and you know you'll be mine.

Rationality;
it shall keep us sane;
nothing foolish.
we all have a goal to reach here.

Call it foolish;
I deem it wise.

the journey to true love?
sacred love?

don't prove me right again.
I wanna be wrong;
I wanna know how it feels;
to really LOVE someone.

take me as I am,
take all of me.

(:

Mak maintain seh!

Today was good,
and I'm so in love with that little kitten tennis BALL!

met mami,
for dinner like finally,
and I had my hungry mode on,
ordered Beef Hor Fun at City Plaza (y)
mami had her Beef Fried Rice.

and took 980 back home.
that's about it.

Tomorrow;
I'll be home the WHOLE day.
LOOKS like it's time to CLEAN HOUSE!

and I'm so gonna bulk my macbook with reggaeton songs,
and WORK THAT BOOTY SHAKE!

it's good workout.
I'm bored,
I'm lost,
I'm confused,
and I'm utterly cranky.

I hate being like this!
ARGH!

tuesdays!
punch the shit out of the PADS!

SING. SANG. SUNG.

I'll give my best at everything.
I'm not perfect.
Keep reminding myself that,
I'm not perfect.

Why?

I'd never understand this life,
In every single thing I do lies a sin,
then what is the point of always trying to do the right thing.

People look at us and say,
look at them,
they have sinned,
for have you not sinned in your younger days?

We're all sinners,
and sometimes always trying to just do the right thing gets too tiring,
and yet i strive for it.

I feel like a hypocrite,
I'm doing and trying to do the right things,
yet still i sin in so many other ways.

So tell me what's the point of living life,
If everything done is wrong,
and is a sin,
then I'd rather choose not to live.

I'm sick,
sick of living up to it,
it gets tiring,
and all that I do;

Is just plain wrong.

why?

I just want to be plain,
simple, pure and clean.

I hate my past,
and I fear my future.

I'm nowhere.
I'm lost.

No one knows the full story,
People who knew just nodded their head
and told me to move on;

but you don't know,
how dirty I feel,
how burdened I am with the past sins.

and i fear,
i fear it all.

I'm a lost soul.