Chocolate is chocolate

Tony Jaa my new boyfriend:) can? haha!
yeah school was a bore today.
hey but yeah not bad la.
must enjoy school,
gotta enjoy what you're doing or you'll only make things hard for yourself.

and classmate Yan Qiu thanks for the reminder on FB!
i know im lagging behind.
we all are:)
that's why T1B2 Rocks.
though matter what we still get things completed.
coolios!

got back pretty early today.
though i must admit ive not really improved with this time management.
gotta work on it.

picked lil sis up from school today:)
it was great.
it's been such a long time since ive done that and i
enjoyed every moment of it.

i was a lil late and she was sitting there her lil face worried.
she asked,
"Didi why are you so late? I waited for you for so long you know."
she said this standing akimbo.

sorry shermeina.
haha!
but didi still love you ok:)

so i decided to take a few pics with my siblings when i reached home.
haha it got rough in the end with amelina pulling shermeina's hair.
LOL!

OH AND THERE'S STUDIO PRO TEST TOMORROW.
time to start mugging you muggery.
haha!

OK GO!

RAWRR!! told you it got rough.

OI RIZKHAN!!!

like a SOMEBOOOOOOOOOOODYYYYYYY!!!!!!

Hey chicka what ya doing tonight??? -.-

HIAKDISH!! TAKE THAT YOU TEMBAM GIRL:)

we will tear the house down for you whether you want or don't want us to:)

aww gimme some sugar:)

loving familia.

p.s: rizqina is M.I.A-ed in this pic cause she was sleeping.
must be tired from a long day at school.

"sometimes the truth is hard to swallow, guess i just gotta gulp it down."
-Sabiruna

Time management

time management,
yes.
time management.

i gotta learn how to manage my time.
not to get too involved with things i shouldn't be involved with.
how?

i guess i just commit myself to way too many unnecessary things.
yeah.

well and one more thing i gotta start going on a strict diet.
lol.
my dad sarcastically said to me as i ate 2 breads down,
"what's the difference of this with a packet of crackers"

OK PAPA!
i get the idea.
time to be serious.

come on sabi,
don't just say let's do it.

and im 5 bucks richer,
better save it for the SMU mass training.

yes siree(:

Motivation

Muay Thai IVP ROCKED!!!
well the matches did that is.
LOL.
so a day before IVP went down to SP
helped with setting up the ring.

it was great seeing everyone helping out.
it was my first time actually seeing a ring and stepping on one.
gosh.

the feeling was AMAZING!!!
so the next day reported at 8.30am.
i was late was watching beautiful boxer at home.

haha.
yeah and then was given the task of collecting score sheets.
watched the match,
i was really engrossed with it.

looked out for superb combos.
paid close attention to girl's matches especially
and im super motivated.

can't wait for training this coming week.
time to go hardcore baby!
and amir is gonna teach me some awesome combos.

ive thought of an awesome combo,
but i gotta work on my whip kicks to make it a successful one.

YIPEE KA YA YAY!!!

"I'll be flying like a butterfly and I'll be stinging like a bee"
-Muhammad Ali

p.s: flexibility is key!

Peservere, for Allah is with those who endure.

i do believe now.
i really do.

it's a scar
a huge scar,
deeply engraved and forever it haunts me.
taunting me, making a fool out of me.

Dear God,
im tired i don't know if i can withstand all of this anymore,
my faith is running low,
and im losing grip.
im sinking under this pressure.
forgive my weakness for im just a mere sinful human being.

God,
please bring back my peace.
those days where i could smile and laugh feeling contented.
return me my sense of rationality.
my patience runs low.

if this is how it's all been fated,
i'll leave it in Your hands God.

unchained melody

time goes by so slowly and time can do so much,
are you still mine??
i need your love,
God speed your love to me.

ive been thinking way too much lately,
about a lot of unnecessary stuff.
but im staying strong,
i couldn't have made it through the storm
without my bros' ears.
thanks guys really i appreciate it.

will blog more later,
am in hq now,
doing S1.
gah.

though matter how many times you try to run away,
you'd still come back the same way.
the day has come,
where all hell breaks lose,
hear her scream.

life has taken a toll on her...
she's like a rug,
stepped and trampled on each day..
she's worn out.

she calls upon the wind to come and carry her away.
the sun to bring back that genuine smile on her face.
the rain, to wash away her sins and pain.
the thunder to bring back her sanity.
the grass to caress her once more.
love to sweep her off her feet one last time.

she feels as though all is lost,
is it?

Is It?

when the cold wind blows

Take me back to those yesterdays where i stood in the sun with boots burning in the heat, where i could sing "when the cold wind blows" and hear the echoes of my platoon mates in symphonic glee.

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in the early morning run,
with a backpack on my back..
with an aching in my heart,
when my shoulders' full of sweat.
im a long, long way from home.
and damn i miss my mama so..
in the early morning march,
ouh when the cold wind blows.
ouh when the cold wind blows...
ouh when the cold wind blows...
ouh when the cold wind blows...
when the cold wind blows.

i dreamed of you last night.
it all seemed so real,
we were walking you and me,
side by side.
and remember that old folks home,
we stood outside there,
when suddenly i hugged you,
it felt so real,
the warmth from your body,
the comfort.
i cried as i hugged you and you lifted my chin,
we kissed.
it felt surreal that kiss.
and you smiled and i knew everything
was gonna be alright.

but reality,
REALITY pulled back this dreamer,
threw her back into the cold harsh truth,
but this dreamer shan't sulk nor frown,
for she knows she have loved you
still am loving you.

i'm not a lost soul,
not a broken-winged bird,
i'm just a romantic
who believes in love
and won't give up loving one that easily.

"when it all starts to crumble down, i just want you to see the beauty in this disaster"
~sabiruna

with or without you

remember me and you,
together.
we watched the sunrise,
bringing light and life to everything in life.
you looked so beautiful,
with it's glorious rays shinning right down on you.
there has always been something about you,
something i'd never been able to lay a finger on.
the way you seemed to have a special glow when the
sun shone on you.

i sat capturing every moment of it,
alive it is in my very being,
every moment of it.
i just sat staring,
at the sun then you.

i never wanted that day to end,
in my memories it shall forever stay.
and every time i feel lost,
i go back to that very moment.
the beauty of it all.

It shall stay with me through time and eternity,
till all is dust and grey,
for I can't stop loving you.

and i love this song,
you were singing it that day,
and i'd wonder about it.
thank you:)
With or Without You-U2
See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And Im waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, shes got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

"some times love does strange things to us, it brings strength to the weak and at times brings weakness to the strong. Yet one can never live without love"
-sabiruna