Abstinence.

Maybe I could possess someone's heart,
take a trip in his shoes and he takes a trip in mind;
I'll read your mind;
you read mine.

I'm talking about abstinence.
Would a guy who really loves a girl wait forever just to hold her hand?
To feel the warmth of an embrace.
The sweetness of a sinful kiss.
The bliss when you're touched.

Would he wait if she insisted?
When It all comes down to just a fleet of emotions;
It'd be inevitable.
But would he wait?

Would he?

I still don't understand till now why it's so hard to love without touch):
It's upsetting.

Could I do with no shoulder to lean on,
No smile to look forward to?
No silly antics?

Hey foolish foolish girl don't you crumble,
stay strong and time will tell(:

Running in circles chasing our tails; rationality got the better of me.

29th September 2009 (CARAMEL AND SUGAR RUSH and BROMANCES!)

Today has been a blast, I shall have to agree with the fact that
I do have a serious deal of a really damaged body clock but
I’m loving every moment of this sanity yet behind it;
I still hold on to my rationality and sanity.
Muay Thai was awesome today. WE were taught by the thai coach today;
he has had like 41 years of experience started when he was just 10!
LIKE WOW!

And I like him a lot he has kind eyes, very humble and he’s sincere
hahaha and he laughs when I did silly mistakes nice guy(:
despite the fact he speaks no English it was easy to understand him and
he’d say muay thai a lot(:
AWESOME combos and the four basic blocks to a kick,
and ELBOWS baby yes loads of them YEEHA!

And a last minute proposition by this “apek”
hahaha headed to Starbucks, which was seriously my first time.
AND THE COFFEE THERE IS AWESOME.
My ouh my and I agree with ya old man CARAMEL is OH LA LA!
Sat down and had a really good conversation.
I really do love intellectual conversations(:
And I love the cold night wind brushing past so quickly
haha and the turns!
Woohoo I wonder how 100kph would feel like(:
And a trip home(:

Aww I simply loved today really.
And, not bad for a first timer yeah?

On a serious note, Life has been good and
I do pray that it will remain the way it is.

Mami actually waited for me to get home to actually massage her head(:
She said she’d managed to sleep well last night after I massaged her head yesterday. Alhamdulilaah.
I do hope she’ll sleep well tonight despite the fact that
this crazy thing is starting to cry outside of my house again. SHEESH!
And I so miss Shisha.
I miss my girls too.
Miss their girlishness and how they go eeww and call me mother chicken(:
Haiz. But I really enjoyed today a lot, after such a long time.

Thank you, I really appreciated it. And I swear I almost cried when I’d listen to ya story,
I just held it back and I swear despite the fact you had twitching eye brows I saw the sorrow in you eyes. Take it easy Okay dude. Life and love has it’s ways but it will all be good soon
InsyaAllah(:

NEW WORD LEARNT YO!
BROMANCE!!! LOL!

Yes crazy thing outside has SHUT UP! Maybe I should join it with a crew cut and a white flowy dress I’ll go up to any dude and say in my gayest voice, “BANG! NAK VOGE” muahaha!


“Ya Allah sensungguhnya Engkaulah yang menentukan segalanya.”

Ponder.

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everyone has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, and I'm reaching out for you

Walk my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Looking shit through each other's eyes

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everyone has a private world
Where they can be alone... sOoOoo
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through OoOo
Are you reaching out for me, and I'm reaching out for you sOoOoo Oo Oo

Only one?

"I'll sing it one last time for you,
if you really have to go."

pardon my disappearance from the surface of this web page,
my days have been fine so far,
I have been blessed with a group of fun loving people.

Recently I've lost my soul again,
something from the past has come back to haunt me,
seizing its chances upon me,
But I won't let it in,
for I no longer know how to love,
and I fear this word much too much.

I've had visions of you endlessly,
to top it all that bad dream wasn't a great help at all.
I won't even know why I still care nor bother,
Despite the cold harsh fact
that I am no longer part of you.

You've moved on so quickly,
It's just a shock to me.
and it has scarred me.

Ouh foolishness spare me this time round,
I'm neither looking for love nor sympathy,
I just want to lead a normal ordinary life,
I'm just out to achieve my goals.

It's not healthy,
but I've gone strong,
I no longer tear on the thought of you,
yet I shan't deny the fact that my heart aches
each time it hears your name.

a thousand lies has made it colder; but I'll still look at things the same way I did before.

-sabiruna.

By END october.

I've made a desicion,
yes I am going to move on,
no i won't forget,
never will forget all your EMPTY promises,
the fact that you were so heartless,
but i guess you've made me strong,
yes I will get my stuff back,
rest assure after which I shan't bother you no more.

But sure thing is I will forever miss your family,
Here I've lost a woman whom I treated just like my mum,
and a lil kid just like my lil bro.
But this is life and I can't,
I just can't live in this foolishness.

For I know,
you'd never meant anything you said,
yet if you did then it's your choice.

Why live in uncertainty when I can be certain,
when I can assure everything around me.
Yes we may not know what the future has install for all of us,
but I'm sure we can all take charge of what is before us now.

Call it selfish,
me breaking an oath;
yet then again to come to think of it;
who broke it in the first place?

you could have it all back but you chose not to.
doesn't it speak for everything already.

Yeah trying to be rationale here,
my hearts' been messing with my mind.
but sometimes we just have to be a little bit heartless.

you know what is best for oneself.
you know.

and this month has been a failure,
but im as determined as ever now.

yes.
this thing it is for sure.

goodbye my sorrows,
for the stars they no longer shine for you.

I've never given up on this love.
never.

by end october,
Im gonna get my hair boy short again,
yes.
cause i love my hair short. (full stop)

SENIOR SPECIALIST COURSE(:

SSC WEST/SEA AND CENTRAL ROCKED.
staying in HQ for a week,
I couldn't have asked for more,
yeah I did get homesick for the first time;
but I was more then glad to be down there.

Many a times I've told myself no more NCC for me,
but I just can't just hold back,
I love NCC way too much,
I love teaching cadets,
passing on the knowledge I have.

And I guess I will never enjoy the past as an OIC or 2IC,
I'm more of a PC or section commander.
It was fun;
and musical chairs aren't lame cause my dear 15 year old cadets enjoyed it(:
and let me tell you a bunch of 15 year old boys can be so cheeky.
HAHA!

ok my dear kids/ cadets here's the command list I promised(:

Advanced Foot Drills

Getting on Parade.
Kanan Penanda Masuk Baris.
Pelatun Masuk Baris.

Formation of Squad.
Pelatun Sedia.

Barisan di hadapan DIAM.
Barisan Tengah kanan pusing.
Barisan Belakang kiri pusing.
Kekanan dan Kekiri PUSING.

Barisan Tengah Kiri Belok.
Barisan Belakang Kanan Belok.
Dari depan cepat JALAN.

Hentak kaki cepat hentak.
Berhenti.

Barisan Tengah Separuh Kiri,
Barisan Belakang Separuh Kanan,
Separuh kiri dan kanan PUSING.

Pelatun SENANG DIRI.


From QUICK time to SLOW time march
Tukar Langkah Pelahan Jalan, 1..2..3..4.. Ja...Lan.
(command falls on left foot)

From SLOW time to QUICK time march.
Tukar Langkah Cepat Jalan, 1..2..3..4.. Ja...Lan.
(command falls of left foot)

Hentak Kaki (Mark Time) in SLOW TIME.
Hentak kaki cepat hentak.
(command is the same instead mark time/ hentak kaki will have a slower timing)

Advance Arms Drill.

Tatang Senjata (Port Arms)
Bimbit Senjata ( Trail Arms)
Kaleh Senjata ( Switch side in which you are holding your rifle)
Baring Senjata (Lie the rifle on the ground)
Angkat Senjata ( Pick up Rifle).

For all the commands above all you have to do is add it into this standard command,
Pelatun ___________ .
e.g. Pelatun Tatang senjata.

Teaching in Stages.

For Arms Drills;
Latihan Senjata Dengan Nombor e.g Rusuk Senjata Skuad satu, Skuad 2...

For Footdrills.

May vary.

e.g. Pusing Belakang dengan nombor kebelakang pusing skuad satu, skuad dua..
Pusing Kiri dengan nombor Kekiri pusing, Skuad satu...

so yeah(:
If there's anything that I've missed out please forgive me(:
Do leave a tag on my tagboard and I will try my best to help you out ok.

Was typing this out solely on memory,
Left the list in my locker-.-

AND I MISS YOU GUYS!!
(:

untitled.

Too many a days have i sat,
pondering on what is the unknown.
Uncertainties lie ahead on this long foggy road.

I walked on,
Venturing into the unknown,
I took my chances.

And today I shall say I'll never regret all of it.
I've made my mistakes,
and now I move on.

Not forgetting the past,
I take it everywhere I go and I learn.
Found the rationality in the irrationality.

I'm my only guide.

" tell me you love me. come back and haunt me;
running in circles; chasing tails;
coming back as we are."

~ when life gets harder along the way; we just feel like giving up; but it's the hope- I'm taking all the chances and I'll never regret this. I'm here. I'll wait.